Aspergers.

What is it?  An autism spectrum disorder characterized by sensory processing deficits that make it difficult (nearly impossible) for my child to integrate into the social world.  It has been such a struggle as we have tried to help him, to teach him, to give him opportunities.  I don't know whether to continue to push him into a regular "mainstream" setting or to isolate him. I know the general public would prefer I do the latter, but if I do how will he ever have the opportunity to learn to function in society?  I used to pray that this trial would be taken from us.  That somehow we could figure it out, that he would be "healed."  Then I came to realize that healing was not going to come in the form that I want.  That, for us, we still have a lot to learn about people and ourselves and our trial is about acceptance and understanding of our mortal experience and all of it's challenges.   But we still need help and I don't know where to turn for understanding.  I read, I pray, I ponder.  We have sought professional help numerous times only to be told they don't know how or can't help us with our particular issues.  The school administration doesn't know what to do with him and I understand their frustration in having to deal with parents whose children don't understand AP or his issues.  He is bullied daily.  A lot of it real, some of it perceived.  So do I homeschool him to protect him and others?  Do we send him to a private school where there is even less tolerance for misbehavior?  Where he has a better chance of protection from bullying but a greater chance of being expelled when he does react.  I don't know!  None of the options are ideal, but then I guess that is just true to life.  It is such a struggle.  But I am stronger than I was 5 years ago.  Is he?  I think so.  But, I still feel so inadequate a lot of the time, and it is hard to know what to do...