"Be not weary in well-doing"

I can't tell you how often this phrase has crossed my mind over the last month.  And although my brain hears it, my heart has not felt it.  I feel tired.  And as a result I am lacking the drive that forces me out of my comfort zone and into those areas that are particularly difficult for me. So I have questioned why I can't serve in my own time and quiet way instead of being forced to the front lines where I have to take charge of and motive a whole Relief Society.  I know it is an opportunity to stretch and develop, and to hopefully touch other lives in the process, but I am simply not good at managing people and organizing things and I feel my failure in these areas poignantly as I struggle to fulfill my calling.  After a minor upset this week involving compassionate service I was left feeling rather depleted.  The next day one of Jeff's co-workers asked how I was doing with my calling.  (I have been touched over the past many months by the interest coming from the people he works with; even those who are not members of our church will ask how I'm doing with my responsibilites).  Jeff told her it had not been a good night, and she pulled out this quote that she carries around in her purse and photocopied it for him to give to me.

"Therefore, how can you and I really expect to glide naively through life, as if to say, “Lord, give me experience, but not grief, not sorrow, not pain, not opposition, not betrayal, and certainly not to be forsaken. Keep from me, Lord, all those experiences which made Thee what Thou art! Then let me come and dwell with Thee and fully share Thy joy!”

I looked up the source this morning, and it came from a talk by Elder Neal A. Maxwell given during April conference 1991.  It is a fantastic talk and just what I needed to get back on track.  http://www.lds.org/general-conference/1991/04/lest-ye-be-wearied-and-faint-in-your-minds?lang=eng&query=%22how+can+you+and+i+really+expect+to+glide+naively+through+life%22